Goodbye Uma

7 months on....and we can finally do this - Goodbye Uma

Slowly in small baby steps
we are learning to live without you
Slowly in every passing breath
we are getting to smile without you

We held on to you for all this while
sometimes angry, most times sad
Not accepting what we certainly knew-
Growing detached , despondent and spiraling bad

The desperation to get answers
the unquenching need to erase that day,
Rhetoric questions like a blunt dagger
Twisting within in every cruel way...

We lived through - crumbling bit by bit
we tried to laugh, play, pretend we were strong
The more we tried - the more we failed
Feeling happy never felt so impossibly wrong..

Until that moment - when you came to me
we chatted and laughed; we cried and fought-
It was like old times.... then you asked to go...
- Was it real ? a dream ? or the closure we each sought ?

Doesn't matter for as I cherish that beautiful meet
I fully fathom the why of what you did and realise too what had been amiss...
We needed that goodbye and thanks for it..
Thank you for the last hug , that touch, that kiss....

I want you to know you will always be with me
Like a barren womb's unborm child
We will miss you forever...we will want you forever
But we'll love, and live fully until we cross over to your side...